chinnychinchinn's Journal

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So i'm offically one whole week away from the miliary camp i'm going to. im really nervous about it and everything. i dont know what to expect and i know im not in shape for it physically. i should be doing more, but if i knew what was in store for me then i would. Sometimes I have big doubts about me going into the Coast Guard. I know that the benefits are awsome and i'll have my life planned out until im 28. But it feels like im losing a major part of my youth by being in the military during my 20s. I'm only allowed home 45 days out of the year and I know that i'll really miss my friends and family. I know im going to lose touch with everyone, thats what thought saddens me. Anyway I still have all this stuff to buy for camp too. Oh yeah and I need to buy a new suitcase. Currently life has basiclly been going on a very monotone track. I get up, I work, I come home, and then I go to bed. I sort of started hanging out with everyone, but its only a couple of times a week. I guess thats just my average summer. It seems so weird because last year i would be out everyday. Now im home so often. gross. at least my parents arent home that often. it seems theres always something for me to do while they're home, its like sheesh this is my summer let me relax. blah blah blah.